Some days I wonder if I will ever grow up and what I will be when I grow up. I know that sounds strange for a 58 year old to admit. I still think that I am "young". When I go home to visit my parents, I still feel like a little girl. Even though things have changed and in some areas the roles have reversed.
Just being there is comforting and having my Mama tell me she loves me and misses me, means the world.
It is impossible to turn back the clock of life. It is not possible to change the past or rewrite history.
It is possible to rewrite the future, and change what lies ahead.
Even though my brain thinks "23" when asked how old I am, my body and energy don't go along with it. I suppose that "23" is the age I am "stuck" in because that is how old I was when we got married. That is the only thing I can come up with.
I realize that I am where I am today because of decisions that I made in my past. Where I am in the future will be based on decisions I make today.
If I am not happy with where I am, then all I have to do is change my attitude and actions and decisions. One leads to the other.
So, I will be more diligent and faithful to complete my school and get that elusive degree. I don't know if it will really make any difference in anyone else's life. But, it will make a difference to me.
So, if I'm not around the blog as often, it is because I'm studying more and pressing on to completion. It is important that I do this ...