In past times I have loved and enjoyed leading Bible studies, teaching Sunday School and also weight loss groups. I have spent hours and hours digging into the Word and preparing. It was so very rewarding. I loved every minute of study and sharing.
I loved the relationships that were formed and grew during this heart sharing time.
In the past few years I have gradually pulled back and not done this. Part of it has been the Sunday schedule that prevented me from being a part of Sunday School, the work schedule, the lack of interest and my own school load.
Where we are pastoring now, they do not have any Bible study. I have been asked (by hugsum) to please start one. I have to admit that I panicked. I immediately became stressed. I do NOT want to commit to leading one.
It isn't that I don't want to DO a Bible study - it is that I don't want to LEAD one there.
I had already figured out that 1/3 of my life is spent in our weekend parsonage. To lead a Bible study there would mean that I would need to go up another night a week. I can't imagine how I can work that into my already "fruitful" schedule.
My dilemma comes from the guilt that I feel in not doing something for God. I am already committed to doing so many other things. Have I over committed myself to things I should not be doing? They are all necessary and things that I know I'm to do.
My faith is weak here... I do not feel that I can add one more thing to my life right now.
My heart says that I should never say "no" to sharing God's Word.... my flesh screams "I CAN'T DO THIS!"
I'll let you know how it turns out....
Are you in the same boat?